I am embarrassed to admit this, but I have filled it by watching every episode of Greys Anatomy in the last month. And somewhere along Season 4 or 5, I fell madly in love with McDreamy. I've always heard females talk about him, but I didn't get it...even when I first started watching (a few days before Sophie left, she and I watched portions of Season One together -- her choice not mine), he just seemed like a nice doctor. No big deal. But Sophie mentioned at one point that Dr. Shepherd reminded her of Daddy (Rod). Yes, I could see a mild resemblance. But then I kept watching and watching...It took a while, but eventually around Season Four (maybe even Season Five), I fell in love.
I think I normally have a wall up to prevent me from falling in love with someone other than my husband...I don't allow myself to be attracted to other men. But I let that wall down since McDreamy reminded me of Rod, and then I lost it completely. I am embarrassed and ashamed, but I cannot stop thinking about him. Thank God I have Rod in my life. Thank God!!! I am lucky. He does remind me of McDreamy more than anyone else in the world!
