Life Goes On

I rarely write any more, but life goes on! Life is good!

The trees are absolutely gorgeous outside my window. Couldn't be better!

Haven't been a vegetarian since June when Sophie came home.

Sophie has a boyfriend.

Rigo was in a play last night His line was "green is for go".

There will be some family drama this weekend at the family portrait sitting.

Vegeterian SIn

I've been a vegeterian since November -- or a pescaterian. I don't eat beef, chicken, pork, lamb, bison, etc....I do eat seaf0od.

Anyway, yesterday at Berryhill's, I ordered two spinach tamales, and one bean tamale. They gave me a pork (perhaps chicken) instead. I did not realize this until I bit into it. I just decided to eat the whole thing -- wasn't even any good.

I was really tempted to give in when Rod grilled chicken recently -- really tempted....had already prepared my plate, and Rod told me not to do it. So I didn't. So why did I give in for a lousy tamale?

House painting means house disarray!!! House disarray, house dissarray.

Sophie confessed that she's not doing well at all academically, and will be home next fall.

Rigo's meds and various levels (cholesterol, ammonia) are a mess. Mom had back surgery this week. But why focus on the negative? There is some good in my life. Thank you for that! Just wish life wasn't so hard for my kids.

Wazzup?

The title of this post shows how uncool and behind the times I am.

But, really, what's up? I'm past McDreamy now...I had to put that aside. Too many other problems..issues. Three of one particular kind. Very disappointing. Take a bow, man! Take a bow.

Big party at our house last night...so I'm tired. Came to work early anyway because I had a 9 am appt, but of course, like almost all Sat. appointments, he did not show.

It's been so long, it's hard to know where to jump back in.

Oh, I have some big news! My mom got married. And she took a honeymoon cruise to Puerto Rico. And we surprised her when she got off the ship. And she's also retired. And my brother is staying with us periodically. He has a job here in Houston, and until his home sells, he's staying with us, and seeing his family on the weekends. But his job takes him to San Antonion and Austin so we don't see him that often. Sophie has a lousy semester, gradewise. Hopefully this will be a better semester. She'll have a lot more support with counselors, counselors and counselors. Really tired, and have a headache. I may just have to go home and rest for a while, but I need to do a couple of things first.

Sorry for the boring post. Life is definitely not boring, but when it's been a while, it's hard to know how to jump back in.

Oh, did I mention I've been a vegetarian since November?

How I am coping

My daughter has gone away to college....I miss her...How do I fill that hole in my heart without her?

I am embarrassed to admit this, but I have filled it by watching every episode of Greys Anatomy in the last month. And somewhere along Season 4 or 5, I fell madly in love with McDreamy. I've always heard females talk about him, but I didn't get it...even when I first started watching (a few days before Sophie left, she and I watched portions of Season One together -- her choice not mine), he just seemed like a nice doctor. No big deal. But Sophie mentioned at one point that Dr. Shepherd reminded her of Daddy (Rod). Yes, I could see a mild resemblance. But then I kept watching and watching...It took a while, but eventually around Season Four (maybe even Season Five), I fell in love.

I think I normally have a wall up to prevent me from falling in love with someone other than my husband...I don't allow myself to be attracted to other men. But I let that wall down since McDreamy reminded me of Rod, and then I lost it completely. I am embarrassed and ashamed, but I cannot stop thinking about him. Thank God I have Rod in my life. Thank God!!! I am lucky. He does remind me of McDreamy more than anyone else in the world!

Sophie

May 1974

May 5 ,1974:

Happy Birthday, my precious darling baby 9-month old brother. I Love you, Dino. Today is Sunday. It was hard to get up since Michelle and I talked a lot last night. We were late for Sunday School. Sat with Charles during church. He and Tip kept talking about all the girls in Charles's life. It really sort of made me mad. After church (against my will) Michelle started to bawl him out. He ran off and went walking with Connie. Came home. Michelle stayed here all afternoon. Went to choir late. Went to New Members training for the last time. Didn't sing in choir tonight. After church we went to the YMCA. Charles went swimming. I played basketball and messed around (a little) with Stanley and Ricky. Gave Charles a ride home. I sat on his lap. He told me "You're the only one that matters." Mom wouldn't let me talk when he called.

May 6, 1974:

Monday. Today is really May 6. Wore Darlene's pink vest to school. Today is Charles and mine's 2 month anniversary. That's what I wore on March 8. John came over and talked to me the whole time during Spanish. In science we had a party cause Liz Vega is Mexican and yesterday was Mexican Independence Day. Ate lunch with Michelle, Donna Shore and Kathy Keszler. Everyone keeps telling me I should be mad at Charles since he asked another girl to the prom. But I'm not really that mad. Maybe I should be. I really do like him a lot. Now my life has meaning. We talked for an 1 1/2 hours. 45 minutes at 7:30. 45 minutes at 9:15. He's so sweet and good and kind. I like him a lot. John came over on his cycle today. He stayed for an hour. Mom really likes him.

May 7, 1974: Tuesday. Dino was very sick last night and this morning. So I stayed home form school to help mom take him to the Doctor. He has strep throat. Went to Gibson's . Then came home. Watched my soap operas. Ate lunch. I got a comic book and TV guide in Spanish. Went back to school. At lunch talked to John Taylor, Kathy Earl, Jeff Mann, Matt Baldrich and several others. Went to the cafeteria during Speech cause Miss Westerhiede is busy with the play. Came home. Practiced a lot. Dad brought pizzas home for supper. Watched Happy Days. Charles called at 9:00. We talked for 20 minutes. He kept talking to his sister. I got mad and sort of hung up. He called back at 9:58- 10:00. He said he had something to ask me but chickened out.

APRIL 5, 1974:

APRIL 5, 1974: Happy 8 months, Dino. Today was the worst day in a long time. Made a 96 on that test in History. I don't have Darrel Stevenson in my 2nd hour but John Taylor does. Darrel is a dope addict. Today he overdosed. He got expelled from school. John had to help him to the office. Judy's mom almost died yesterday. She has malignant cancer. Judy is staying with her uncle. She can't stand it. Her mom is a counselor at our school. I cried and cried all afternoon cause of Darrel and Mrs. Willoughby. Gave impromptu speeches on "Mom would kill me if she ever found out...." Charles called at 5:10 - 5:20. We fought. He said he might call back at 9:30 but he didn't. Michelle and I went to First Baptist of Midwest City to hear James Wright sing.